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Just look at the curve
People bounce off the heavy notes. I understand. Those pages ask you to decide something large before you have been given a small thing to hold.
Here is a small thing.
A sentence is not only meaning. It is a path through other sentences that meant similar things, said by people you will never meet. Write those paths as numbers and you get a curve. The curve is not a soul. It is a window. You can look through a window without moving in.
That is all the language work on this site is, at the start. Not a verdict. A way of looking.
The papers, the instrument, the notes that argue — they can wait until you want them. I would rather you finish this page than agree with me.